Hello everyone! Are you all doing well?
The following is just crappy spam, no need to read.
It's been a long time since my last update, so I'll just spam whatever comes to my mind -I just got tired of having always the same page. They're just my thoughts at the moment |D

I've been trying to improve my drawing lately, but I think I have problems with anatomy. Haha. I'll have to study that....
It's weird. I feel like I have less and less imagination compared to before...That scares me a bit.

At school, I have an....awful french teacher. She doesn't give us any lessons, only exercises, she hasn't got any authority, she doesn't explain well, she asks a question, ignores the student answering and starts talking to someone else-then she tells the first one to stop talking at the same time. She also yells the whole time, gives *rapports (dunno the english..)* to any student getting on her nerves and blahblahblah. She's also been vulgar with some students, yelling to them to shut up, and so on.
I complain a lot, eh.
But anyhow, the worse is that she explains really badly, and that we don't understand. We're all quite worried for the big exam on June... As we all have to write our opinion of the class, problems etc. on a paper for the "class concil" (does that word even exist), we all told about that really bad teacher.
But I think I did a bit too much....I wonder whether doing that was correct or not. I mean, I was maybe too harsh...on the other hand, that exam is really important.


I've been wondering a lot lately. About future. Not sci-fi stuff xD No, about my future. I really don't know what I want, I don't know where I'll be going, what I'll do. I don't even know where to do my internship-thingy -it's in February, we're supposed to start searching now.
Time passes really fast! It makes me kinda sad. Somehow I wanna stay a child. No, I'll always be growing up and getting old, but in the inside I'll still be a child. When I get old, will I die regretting anything? Is what I am now enough? Should I try harder? Harder, but to what? Am I supposed to find my answers by myself? It's quite hard. I suck at being realistic and responsible.
What will I be like?
What will my future be?
Am I worth it?
Why the heck am I asking so much questions?
Why am I FAIL? XD

=_= How depressing. let's move on something nicer.
Tomorrow, I go to school.
No, that's not nice.

Holidays in three weeks! I'm going to Berlin~!

I have many projects...but none about school. Ah, I'm thinking about going to the Eurasim -it's a manga-school in Paris. But is that good? I don't know if I can do anything great anywhere. Maybe I'll regret afterwards...I don't know if I'm capable of making "artist" be my profession later. I won't gain any money.. and maybe I can do something else, but what?
..I have no idea! D8
I think a lot, but I always turn around the same ideas without getting answers. Actually, maybe I'm thinking to avoid thinking or something complicated and stupid like that XD
I think something happened to my imagination. I used to be creative =_=

Yay.
Other stuff..
I'm finally gonna play in a band~ Nice, isn't it? I feel like it's gonna be quite hard to play altogether...There aren't many people who play instruments in my school, but we decided to form a music group with some friends~ We haven't played together yet, but I went yesterday at my drummer-friend's house. It was fun!

xD I know, I know you don't care. I'm gonna stop spamming here.

*I feel like I'm gonna make another spam-journal soon...this one's gonna get on my nerves*